What to do when your heart is broken

I've posted on here before about think my boyfriend was cheating... I don't know if he was or if I was just overreacting.. and I guess I will never no.

He broke up with me. He said he was tired of me not being able to trust him and he just couldn't do it anymore. In a way I feel like shit for this bc I did not want to drive him to the point where he didn't want to be with me anymore. I just felt like he was being sneaky. He was hiding his phone from me. I even told him all I needed to see was his aunts name in his inbox. And when he finally showed me, he had deleted everything. Text messages included. So I'll never know if he truly was cheating on me or not. He told me that he just wants to be single for a while and not have to deal with someone nagging him.

My heat is broken. I want to be with him. I can't help but feel like I pushed him to far. But if it was really just his aunt talking to him.. why hide it.. the shitty part to this break up, is all his family lives in florida and I'm in Virginia. So on Friday the 7th he's taking a plane home and that'll be it. I'll never see him again.

I know I'll get over this, but right now I just can't see it. We live together, we sleep together, we so everything together. I don't want to be without him. I love him.

I even told him I could work on trusting him if he could stop hiding things from me. And he told me that I just pushed him to far and he has someone lined up to stay with, when he does get home.

I just can't say it enough, my heart is broken.. I'm lost. I tried to apologize and he won't take it. I cried all day, and I'm fighting tears at work. It'll be the same tomorrow too. I'm just broken. I'm hurt.