Still petrified

EctopicSurvivor • Engaged 💍 TTC After Recurrent Miscarriages & an Ectopic (DECEMBER 2021).
Trying to keep calm but I am still petrified. I envy all those women who have had a pregnancy and never experienced a loss, therefore don't worry about every ache, pain or Braxton Hicks. 
I'm 26+5 today and still panicking at everything. 
I'd love to be able to enjoy the pregnancy, but that's just not possible after 9 miscarriages.