I know this has nothing to do with my LO. But I just need to vent and I have no one else to talk to at the moment. I'm just feeling super down today. It's my last weekend of maternity leave, and the Fourth of July. I was SO excited to have this holiday off because I don't EVER get them off. Plus with being pregnant for nine months I figured it would be a fun time to hangout and have a few drinks with some friends and family. I've been looking forward to this weekend for forever and it's just not gone how I imagined at all. I know people have bigger issues. I'm not trying to throw myself a pity party. I just wanted to get out and enjoy myself and instead I've found myself at home all weekend watching everyone else enjoy themselves on social media. I'm bummed. Completely. I went out for the first time lastnight and all of my friends bailed so I ended up going to my boyfriends friends house with a bunch of guys that I don't really talk too. I just wanna cry at this point. I am so in love with my little girl. And I adore spending time with her. But mama just wanted to let loose a bit before returning to work and reality. Just sucks that it went the complete opposite I guess.