Is it bad that i...?

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Is it bad that i wanted my pregnancy test to be positive? I'm 17 almost 18 and he doesn't want kids yet(he said after highschool in our 20's) but i was kinda sad when it showed up negative.... 
(The backstory is that we had a broken condom, didn't notice, he didn't cum in me cause he pulled out, but he was scared because of precum)