Completely Frustrated, had to vent.

I am completely fed up with this trying shit or even having a kid, like its tearing me apart ever since I had my miscarriage. Like I have a 2yr old almost 3yr old step daughter, I'm to the point where I don't know if I should go see a specialist or not. But it literally just tearing me apart. I see my friends who have 2-3 kids and one on the way, it so frustrating not being able to have one it seems like, so hard for no apparent reason.