Heartbroken

OK so on 7/15/16 I had to have surgery to terminate my pregnancy BC it was on the lining of my uterus & my doctor said if i didn't terminate it it could kill me. So agreed to do a procedure instead of shot BC this was my 2nd ectopic pregnancy & since my right tube was scared I wanted it removed. So all together this was me & my spouse 3rd loss BC our first was a miscarriage. Well yesterday we got into an agreement & he said he wish he never got into a relationship with me BC he would have kids by now BC even his ex has a child now. This comment hurt me so deep BC we have always talked about this & not once did he ever express this. How can u be with someone for years & say something like that. How can I forgive him or look at him the same. And the worst part about it is my doctor said my left tube looks great & I shouldn't have a problem carrying full term now but now I don't know if I wanna go half on a family with him