Body dysmorphic disorder...

BDD sufferers may perform some type of compulsive or repetitive behavior to try to hide or improve their flaws although these behaviors usually give only temporary relief. Examples are camouflaging (with body position, clothing, makeup, hair, hats, etc.), comparing body part to others' appearance, seeking surgery, checking in a mirror, avoiding mirrors, skin picking, excessive grooming, excessive exercise, changing clothes excessively 

I suffer from most of these symptoms. My point of this post is that for years my mom (even though she knows I have this and an eating disorder) continues to comment on my appearance. What I wear. My makeup. My skin (pointing out if I have a pimple or mark). But most of all my eyebrows. Which is where the "constant grooming" part comes in. I'm just so tired and sick of her doing this to me. She thinks she's "helping me" by telling me all these things. I'm about to be a licensed Esthetician (skincare and makeup specialist). Today she told me "no one is going to want to hire someone to do their eyebrows or makeup if the person doing it can't even keep her own brows even." This destroyed me. Cause I can't stop. I pluck them so much because I'm obsessed with them bein the "perfect" shape and I can't stand the random hairs. I always pluck them smaller and smaller. I know what I'm doing. I just can't stop and if I were to try to explain that to her she'd tell me I'm being stupid and to just stop. 😭 I snapped at her when I told her I didn't want to talk about it anymore and she kept pushing and pushing. I cracked and screamed at her and now I feel awful. I feel so out of control and miserable rn 😭 I just want it to stop.