My ex used to hit me.

My ex used to hit me and we broke up because i told a friend and she helped me though it. He was also verbally abusive and would want me to tell him where I was and who I was with and if it was with one of my friends he didn't like or somewhere random he would get mad and just call me names and make me feel bad for making him mad. I didn't leave him before hand because I thought I loved him and we used to talk about life and he helped me through a lot. It's been half a year and we started talking again. We hung out once and had sex and I don't even know why. I could never forgive him ,but I don't hate him. Sometimes i miss him and want to take him back ,but I can't for so many reasons. Sorry for sharing I just needed to say something without losing someone I'm close too. I probably sound stupid.