Ahhhhh

Wanted to do skin to skin cuddles with my 9 month old I miss it so much can't wait till my baby boy is born but anyways my 9 month old hasn't breastfed since 4 months old because I stopped when I found out I was pregnant again and now he's crying because he just tried to breastfeed again and now he's crying and I'm crying now and so emotional because I feel like such a bad mom for stopping and I'm going to have a new born to breastfeed and he's gonna see and I don't want him to think I forgot about him when I didn't :(