Rant..

Okay my cousin is a drinker,smoker and party animal no intentions of getting her shit together..but she keeps getting pregnant with ease no trouble in the world. I'm over here got a degree got my shit pulled together very well and I'm trying to have a child and its just not happening like im doing shit right and all I get is BFN... I am genuinely angry and I don't want to be happy for her she's getting blessed with beautiful babies and not giving a shit about them..tell me am I just that jealous bitch that need to have a seat in the corner or has anyone else felt this way😡