Need to vent

Kiylene • Kiya💜
All I've ever wanted was to be a mom from a very young age While other kids watched cartoons I would watch bringing home baby or my baby story on ttc.  I can remember taking a bath an pretending I was in Labour  giving birth I would  after I would dress my dogs an cats in my old baby clothes an play mom and baby for hours haha I bet my animals hated me.  I was So fascinated by child brith and breastfeed from the age 8 I already new I would give natural birth and breastfeed my child.  I new I would grow up an me the man of my dreams we would get married and right away have a family well everything happens the way I planed except the family part it took us 1 year to finally get pregnant only to have a misscarge Iv not been able to get pregnant since an it sending me to a dark place I feel I will never be able to give my husband and me what we have always wanted a family. The photo is my husband after we come home from finding out I have lost the baby he seems so strong in the ER I remember thinking to my self how can this not hurt me but he was just holding it all in everytime I take a pregnancy test I feel I let him down 💔