Blame myself 4 my baby abnormalities

The time I conceived my husband & I werent doing good @ all I was ready 2 get a divorce I was letting him stress me out even after I told him I was pregnant I wasn't thinking bout her & her health I just wanted him to do right by me & for him 2 change 4 the better July 7th I did the anatomy scan they said has hydrocephlause fluid on both sides of her brain & her cerebellum is measuring small in my mind I feel I'm the cause of it bkus I was acting a nut case & not thinking bout her I feel so horrible that she was suffering with fluid on her brain