Waking up this morning I was happy and excited because my husband and I were going to spend the day in the big city. Before I went to shower I received a message from my mom saying, "Kayla (my cousin) is 2 months pregnant." My heart broke into a million pieces and I didn't even realize I was crying until I noticed my shirt was wet. You're probably wondering why I'm not exactly thrilled for her. This cousin of mine has been using hard drugs ever since she was in her late teens and early twenties. She's been arrested in several states for prostitution and drugs. She has a child already that she doesn't even take care of. My situation is completely different. Besides being a little overweight I'm healthy. I have a great husband and we both have great jobs. Why haven't we had a child yet? PCOS. I do not ovulate on my own and won't unless I have clomid and metformin. We can't afford these medications so we can't get pregnant. I just don't understand anymore. I would die just so I could give my husband a child. My perfect day with my husband is gone. I'm in bed crying my eyes out. I just don't know what to do anymore....