Well I was scheduled to be induced on June 21, but it didnt happen...

We went to the hospital at 8 am..... Got there into the room, found out I was just 1 cm... ..So they injected some pain relieve stuff into me, to make me relax( that made me feel like I was on CLOUDS).... Then they inserted a balloon into me , to help my cervix open. I had never heard of that. I thought they would start me on pitocin right away but they said no because I wasnt far enough.... Doctor said it was post to stay in me for 10 hours and there was a stick hanging out of me, that the nurses pulled every hour.... OKAY, up until the second to last time they pulled it , and I about Screamed my HEAD OFF.... then the last time they pulled it , it came right out... And it started, CONTRACTIONS and PITOCIN... I delt with it, my plan was to have a natural birth, but that went out of the window..

It's about 11 or 12 at night , and CONTRACTIONS are just coming .... I'm taking them every couple minutes, shaking , moving trying to take pain.. And my fiance is steady asking me if im okay , and im making it through at this point.... I had a oxygen mask on for the night because my heart rate and babys was falling...and my blood pressure was high. Then 4 am comes, i felt something , im trying to use the bathroom , itS hURTING SO BAD ... TRYING TO GET BACK TO Bed before another CONTRACTION comes but its there..... . I was steady telling fiance something is wrong , because I was horrendous pain, crying... He is steady telling me to get the nurse to get me some medicine... FINALLY GAVE IN, at 6 or 7 am I asked for the epidural... Got it and thanked god!....

We waited and then the NURSES came to break my water , and noticed it was already popped ... And then checked me and I was only at 6 cm.... They then at this point stopped my pitocin because of the babys heart rate and blood pressure..... Still waiting, finally checked me again and I was fully dialated...

June 22 @ 10:30 we started pushing, and found babys head was sunny side up, and I was narrow down there... So all these dang doctors are putting there finger in me to try to turn him... IT WAS HURTING ME SO BAD.... AND they couldn't get him turn .... So I kept pushing hard , for 3 hours in every dam position on every CONTRACTION.... I never stopped... An the Nurses stood there, and kept telling me good job... BUT NO HEAD , NO BABY STICKING OUT!..... Pain back on 10, from epidural wearing off .... I'm just tired and crying.... DOCTOR came back and said since nothing has changed, let's do a C SECTION.... MY HEART DROPPED, WAS NOT READY..... an my fiance had just walked out to get some food, and here comes nurses rushing me to operating room and I'm crying, shaking, hoping my fiance gets there to hold my hand .. An he comes, I still couldn't calm down.. I felt them rip the baby out off... I almost had a blood transfusion because I lost so much blood.... TERRIBLE....

I WENT to recover on another floor, and I couldnt walk, was in pain.... I kept calling nurses to help me to bathroom and to put him in crib .... Noone nobody came.... My fiance had to stay home with step son cuz we didnt have no one to watch him and they didn't allow kids ... It was worst experience of my life , I cried ... I didnt know how to soothe baby , so he was crying... I was up trying to breast feed him and he wasnt latching .... I was falling asleep with him in my arms, while I was on so many pain relieve drugs....it was all bad. BABY HAD SEVER JAUNDICE, had to be in hospital for over an week . It scared me, him being under the blue lights and then taking his blood so much... Never again, sorry so long .... But he is a healthy one pound baby boy name Levi.... An I'm glad I made it through....