Am I a good kid

I am a prude to my friends and a bad bitch to everyone else my friends sleep around I just had my first kiss my friends have tried drugs I do smarties instead my friends go to real parties I chaperone kids ones instead my friends are cute and preppy and I'm soft grunge why do people like that hang with me should I try to be like my friends should I do things like go to party's I kinda want to but am scared I don't want to sleep around or do hard drugs but maybe have one good make out sesh and a party with a couple beers but I'm scared what to do