Need mothers who have already had their child's advice!!!

I am 18 and 8 weeks pregnant. I have a long time until I have my baby but I can't keep thinking about this. I fainted while getting my tattoo, nose pierced, tongue pierced, I even fainted when my boyfriend accidentally busted my lip when it was hardly even bleeding. The thought of needles makes me want to barf and/or faint and anything to do with a lot of pain does the same. I'm so ready to have my baby but I am sooo scared. I want to have a c section so I don't have to get the epidural and I don't have to risk my vagina ripping but at the same time idk how I'll be being awake with my stomach cut open and Im not looking forward to recovering for 2 weeks. I don't even think I'd be able to sit still for an epidural AND what if I faint??? Any advice would help.