Life going off the rails..

I'm not sure what I'm thinking I'll get out of this. But I guess I just want to share what's going on in my life right now. Maybe someone might listen.

After 12 years me and my SO are going our seperate ways. He just feels like there's something missing and I respect that. It's extremely hard since I love him incredibly much. We started all this last year but decided to give it another try, sadly it didn't work. I could feel it so I was better prepared this time than last year. Then I went into deep depression and had massive anxiety. I didn't eat and I had nowhere to go. I even thought about suicide.

Things are a bit different this time. He found another apartment so I can live here for the time being. I have to find another place soon though because I can't afford the rent here for more than a few months. I also started a new job. Which in most cases would be great news. Sadly, my boss seems to have fallen in love with me (if I am to believe his words) and wants me to be "his". He calls me and sends me texts and wants to see me privately after work or when I'm free. I've told him I'm not interested and even if I was, this is not a good time. He wont stop because he says I'm worth fighting for. Which would be sweet if he didn't have a fiancee and two kids and almost twice my age.. and also be my boss. Now I'm thinking about quitting this job because I just can't handle everything.

My depression is back, along with my anxiety. I've stopped eating and I sleep almost all day.. I just don't know what to do.

As I said. I'm not writing this to get help.. I guess I'm writing this so I wont feel so alone..

Thank you for taking your time to read this.