😔 I need someone to help me with this

Ok term 1 we had 2 new guys in our class. One was Deo and the was EJ. EJ and I became really good friends and then he asked me out and I turned him down. We still continued our friendship and grew closer. At the end of the term he asked another girl out. I was a bit mad because I had started to get feelings for him but wasn't really jealous so I was like it's all goods. Term 2 comes along and by now everyone knows EJ is the biggest liar ever and we had a bit of a rough patch and his girlfriend found out he just asked me out to make me jealous. Then they broke up but after a while got back together. So after our rough patch we mend our relationship and everything is good again. Term 3 started we were so close it was ridiculous. He still had a girlfriend and was technically cheating on her with me. By now I've fallen hard for him and really like him. We sat next to each other in class and he would grab my thigh and we would hold hands when nobody was looking. I loved it. Until 3 days ago. So close. Best of friends. It was no more. As a girl it felt like a knife had just stabbed my heart. He was sad and I asked him what was wrong and he said " I've just realised what I've been doing". I cried all night that night. We had the day off on Wednesday. I hated the weekends because I just wanted to go to school to be with him. Let me just remind you at the start of term 3 I didn't know that EJ and was dating her again because they had broken up before so I said to him it's either her or me and he chose her and of course I was heart broken but didn't say anything. It's been 3 days since he said that. 3 days of my heart feeling like a piece of crap because he chose another girl. The thing that really got me today: I saw him holding her hand and laughing, that's exactly what we did. I found out that he forced himself to stop liking me and that he feels sorry for me because I still like him. I still do. It's going to be hard getting over him if I can. He's basically cut me out of his life now. No more Bridget just the occasional glance and smile at each other then look away. He's not there anymore. His hugs were so good and so soothing. His smile was so nice and calming. We wanted to kiss but knew we couldn't. I miss him. And the sad thing is....I actually fell in love with him....

I talked to him a couple of days ago and he said he doesn't want to lose me and I said well you already are. I literally hate this feeling.