Hanging on by a thread!!! Advise please.

I am 26 weeks prego now and I can't wait to meet my little one. BUT!!!!!

I don't think I was ever emotionally and mentally ready for what Pregancy brought. I am hardly hanging in there. I know could be some hormones mixing in there.

Today had my 2nd 3 hour glucose test and I barely failed but failed none the less. I know that most time you can't control this but I still can't help feeling unfit. My iron is supper low and have to take 2 more pills on top of mu prenatals.

To top it and my biggest issue is, i was washing my lady parts and noticed a bump on my vingina wall (lip). You can imagine, ive been in instant panic and discuss. I've only ever had 1 partner and that ls my husband. I have never asked him about previous partners. Obviously i jump the gun thinking he cheated but I also did my research and HPV can lay dormant forever in people with regular immune systems. But being pregnant puts a hitch in the old immune system.

On top of this I feel super unattractive!!! I feel like i have a super noticeable mustache, again hormones and sun. Which ive been in all summer since i Coach softball.

Failure, ugly and disgusting are what keep running through my mind and i havent been able to move on.