Hate all you want..

I honestly feel like getting pregnant ruined my life. I'm so miserable all the time. I'm depressed, I'm broke, I'm sore and tired, I've lost family and friends because of this baby. I sometimes wish I hadn't gotten pregnant. I feel a lot of resentment towards my unborn baby. I feel like a terrible person for saying it. But it's the honest truth. I'm only 19, and I'm missing out on everything that I should be experiencing at this age. I should be partying, and heading to college, and figuring out where I want my life to go, but instead, I'm sitting in my apartment, bawling my my eyes out, can't afford to buy a bag of chips and haven't been able to do anything to pamper myself or make myself feel good for months without feeling guilty about spending money on anything other than groceries or rent. I don't even know if I want to be with my boyfriends anymore, but I stay with him for the sake of our baby....

I just feel so done with this baby already and he's not even here yet.. 

I don't know what to do...