Just needed to vent!

Ok, so call me crazy, but middle child syndrome is real! It's more apparent now, than ever, that I'm pregnant. I've always been the one in my family to compromise and consider everyone else's feelings. The only other time I've expected to be considered first was my wedding, and even then it was too much to ask. My sister called me a bridezilla because, even though she wasn't the maid of honor, I wouldn't let her wear a tighter and shorter dress.😧

Fast forward a few years and I'm pregnant! First planned baby in my family for generations. Not that we expect to be treated any differently, but can we at least get equal excitement that our siblings got?! We're both middle children btw.

So, my birthday is coming up September 9th. (In our families birthdays are mini holidays) Right around that time I'll be close enough to the 20 week mark. I planned on just doing a joint birthday bbq/gender reveal. I try to be as low maintenance as possible and two parties in the same month feels like too much to ask of family and friends. My mother, whose birthday is in JULY, decides to throw a huge party the next day for her and my dad's birthday (his birthday is September 1st). I was planning on having my bbq there because we live in a smaller apartment. But now I can't do it there because my mom doesn't want anyone on the house the day before her party, which will be outside.

Now, I know I'm not entitled to their home. I understand I can't be mad about what they do and don't want happening in their house. I'm just hurt that, I wasn't once considered for plans on my birthday weekend. Of all the weekends between July 28th and September 9th THAT'S the one she chose. My dad doesn't even want a party.

*sigh* I know I sound like a 15 year old complaining my mommy won't let me have my party at her house. I just needed to vent. I'll figure something else out and move on, like I always do. I just thought, maybe since I'm pregnant, my family would consider me. Thanks for reading if you made it this far.