Im really worried about my little guy

Im 8w 2d and i started bleeding last week it was dark red and had tons of clots in it. Ive been trying to take it easy and i put myself on bed rest. I read some moms still carried full term even when they bled like this but the other day my fiance thought he saw something in after i went to the bathroom in the toilet bowl. We were trying to leave so i took a quick glance instead of actually checking like i usually do and i figured it was just tussue and flushed. But its been 2 days & i cant feel him like i did before. I know hes to small to kick and move but i knew he was there. Im too scared to go into the doctor even though i know i should. Weve had a lot of ups and downs when it comes to pregnancies & im terrified theyre going to tell me i lost him. Im still bleeding a little but i havent had my normal pains with him like i usually do. Someone please tell me if ypu bled like this and just didnt feel your baby for a little while after. Or what i should be feeling if i did miscarry. Im terrified that it was him & i fell horrible for not taking the time to look like i usually do... Someone please give me some kind of hope that hes still with me. My hearts breaking at the thought of losing him and not checking like i should have... Someone please help me