It has been 4 years since he passed away, my cousin who was more like a brother has been gone for 4 years and I find myself crying out of nowhere when I think about him. Two days ago I had a dream that he was here with us that he was not dead and we were all happy. Since then I've been so emotional, seems like this doesn't get any easier. I'm not the type of person to show my emotions therefore I cry and cry when I'm alone and don't discuss how I feel.