Strong "connection" with someone from high school...

So let's start off by letting you ladies or men know I am a mom of two boys and one child in the oven. My fiancée and I have been together for almost 6 years now. We are not quite married yet due to a terrible proposal. (He asked me to marry him, then literally right after, out of guilty told me he had cheated on me a year prior while out of state, while pregenant with our first, with a prostitute, ewew!) Let's just say that ruined the ring, the proposal and the purity of the relationship. I have forgiven him however the purity of the relationship will never be the same again.

We have our issues and fight time to time and haven't quite learned the greatest communication and that is highly important. However, I don't ever plan on leaving my man and do still want to get married and be with him through thick and thin. Here is my dilemma....

I'm a stay at home mom and don't get out much due to me not working (a choice between the two of us to stay with our babies for as long as I need to breastfeed and be with them) and him having very little income. I don't have money to take my kids to movies and fun activities, sometimes we don't have enough to even have gas to go to a park... with that being said, I don't socialize much with others. I've become someone who is very social and became even afraid to talk to anyone...

He gets to go to work and talk to people all days. I sometimes get jealous because he works at a health food store and I see how many women literally flock around him when he is talking about health. I've gotten over it but I have become more jealous at the fact that I don't get to embrace my natural sexually energy as does he when he gets to talk to women... my sex drive is just bleh some days but I feel much better when I get to speak with anyone outside of my house... I've talked to him about this and how people do need to be able to talk to others to feel confident, or other connections other then your own personal relationship with your SO...

The dilemma...

I recently started going to school on campus rather then online. I use to have a major crush on this guy from high school 7 years ago when I graduated and prior... I never talked to him I just thought he was really cute but never though much of it.... about a year or 2 ago I would always see him at the market I shopped at. He would smile at me as I did with him. He knows I have kids and a man. I think we both know that we crush on each other. He has this literally pull on me his energy draws me in and I get butterflies and feels excited to be in his presence... he stopped working at the market and I haven't seen him in more then a year. However, recently while going back to my class I saw him. We literally stopped what we were doing (he was talking) and I was (walking) past. It was like time froze... I smiled and said, "I see you everywhere don't I?" He said, "I know." As I keep walking to class I asked "Why is that?" He said he didn't know... and that was that....

I really want to talk to him but our energy is so strong I don't even know where to direct it... I've read some articles on how to redirect sexually energy for an amazing outcome of friendship and even just having more of a drive for life... I don't even remember this guy's name, I just know his intense energy when I'm around him...

I'm sacred to talk to him because my fiancée is aware of the fact I had and still do have a "crush" on him. I do still want to talk to him because I can't help but feel that the universe keeps bring me around him for some reason. I just don't now what to do, how to approach the situation, etc... any advice? o_O

I'm adding anonymously and plan to keep things that way. I won't be able to answer questions about the situation so one way sinple advice would be awesome. (:

Thanks in advanced for any responses!

Update: Almost 80 views and no advice? ): ):