The one that got away.

Does everyone have a 'one that got away'? I wish i didn't have this feeling. It has been 4 years since my ex and i broke up and we have both since gotten married to different people. He has a new baby and i am pregnant and due in October. Our chemistry was unbelievable. It felt like he was my soulmate, and due to circumstances that happened, there was absolutely no closure. This has been so hard for me, and i don't know how to get past it entirely. I have done my best to move on and i love my husband and am so excited to be a mom, but i always saw these things happening with the other guy.

More specifics on what happened/lack of closure: he was deploying and freaked out and broke up with me right before deployment. I was so distraught that i ended up seeking comfort in one of my exes and sleeping with him. When he got to Afghanistan, he wrote to me with immense regret about breaking up and told me I was the one and he wanted to marry me when he got back and start a family, etc. I felt i had to be honest with him about what happened, so i told him. He never talked to me again. I sent him a care package and he blocked me on facebook. It made me feel horrible. With the lack of closure i have never fully gotten over it, no matter how hard i have tried.