don't know where else to tell my story

When I was younger than 7 for sure . (It's all a blur) me and my younger sister shared a room .we had a bunkbed , we had our toys in our room it was a all girl room . I remember one night I woke up under the bottom bed and I only had my shirt on , no underwear or pants/shorts (don't recall what I had on) and I remember one of my dads cousin leaving the room , and me telling my mom that I think he took them off . (Everything is a blur , and I'm stressing over it ) we lived in a house with 4 bedrooms , one my parents , one next to my parents for me and my sister next to our room was one for my dads cousins, and another one for like 3 more cousins .all males . My dad never drinked and only he's cousins did , but he was barely ever home cause he would work and cheat on my mom , and coming home late or sometimes say he had to work far and stay over at the towns he would work . How can I remember, I'm 19 now , with a 3 year or and I'm 22 weeks pregnant, I have been thinking about it for a while now . And I just want to forget . How can I know if he did something to me , because I'm afraid of being around Man older than me . Even if I know some won't son anything to me , but I get shaky , I don't talk to them , and sometimes I feel like crying .