confused rant

I really want to get married! I didn't want to until recently. Me and my boyf aren't having problems but in my head we are simply because I was pregs recently and he didn't want but wen I went to my appt there was no heart beat. I love him and I'm sure he loves me but I just don't trust but I know he will never cheat on me, I've been cheated on before and I've never had anyone that loves me the way he does but he doesn't wanna get married at all, he won't even talk about it and I know this post is confusing but this is exactly how I'm feeling CONFUSED.COM wtf do I do, I feel like I'm going insane, I'm driving myself crazy due to my own insecurities 😩😩 NO BASHING OR RUDE COMMENTS! I won't reply cos I don't know how to reply anonymously !