I just really want to share my thoughts and experience..

I really really wanted to breastfeed. When I was pregnant I was so worried that it would be too hard, that she wouldn't latch, I wouldn't have enough milk etc. when my baby was born and she latched for the first time tbh I teared up because that was step one.. Never did I imagine it would be so HARD especially the first few days / weeks ... The first couple of days in the hospital I thought to myself 'it'll get better, I'll get home, be more comfortable and it'll be easier for me' because let's face it, having a baby stuck to your boob every 45 mins to an hour SUCKS. I love it, I love the bond it's created between us, I loved spending so much time with her..... But she'd constantly cry while she was nursing and I didn't know why. There were numerous of reasons of why she could have done that but to know which it was? If I wouldn't have had my parents help and support (I stayed with them for a month) I probably would have gotten depressed. It was especially harder at night when I was EXHAUSTED and she would nurse, cry, nurse, cry and so on... I would just cry. Not just a couple of tears here and there but CRY.

It was fucking hard, for me, it was hard. So many times I wanted to give up and just give her formula (in no way am I saying formula is bad, to breastfeed was just something I really wanted to do)