Long story short.... I was sexually abused and have many medical issues. I don't get along with anyone in my family. I've been with the same guy for 2 years. I've never felt loved ... I do t want to trap the guy with a child but at the same time I want someone to love and someone who will love me. I am a senor in high school. I will be 18 in feb. and my boyfriends already in college. I have the option to get my birth control removed on Tuesday. I want to get pregnant and run away with my baby. I just don't want my child to hate me for growing up without a daddy. Or the father finding out and there being trouble. Am I being selfish ? Or too desperate ?