We've been together for four years now, living together for over three. I just want to clarify that I do love him; I've never loved someone so much. It's his depression that sometimes makes it a little harder. 🙁

He's had depression and anxiety for about two years now. He takes daily medication and sees the doctor weekly. Recently it has started to get a bit better, but then he'll have anywhere between a day and a week where everything just goes to shit again before his mood gradually lifts. When he goes so low, it makes it harder for me to love him because he pushes me away. If anything stresses him when he's lower, he takes it out on me. He'll get angry and upset and push me away. I know it's not intentional, he can't control it. I just wish he could react differently. I also suffer with depression and don't react like that, but I do know everyone is different.

I'm just posting this because he's hit another low mood again over the past couple of days and I need to vent. He's usually the person I tell everything to, but I can't with this. I can't make him feel guilty for something I know he can't control. I just wish I could make it better for him.