pumping fail

Lisa • Bennett Ray 9/14/16 💙💙💙 Baby Girl Due 5/1/20 💖💖💖
Ugh!!!  I finally broke down and had that cry I've been needing since birth.  My little one decided to arrive 6 weeks early, so we've been in the NICU for over a week with no estimation of when we might be released.  Our little one is such a fighter and has been advancing every day, thank goodness.  We weren't sure we would ever even meet him, labor was very hard on him and he was born without a heartbeat.  We had an amazing team of doctors who I literally owe our lives to.  My husband and I have been staying in the Ronald McDonald house attached to the hospital.  While I'm eternally grateful for the opportunity to stay here, it's not easy living in a hospital and only being able to see your baby at scheduled times.  I've been using a hospital pump that they generously let me borrow until mine came in the mail.  It came in yesterday and I was SO excited to have my own!!  I got a little ahead of myself apparently.  Pumping is so hard, and this milk is so precious, I can't believe I let this happen. 😭😭😭 Please pray that little one continues to progress and we get to go home soon. x
Thanks for listening.  I've been trying so hard to put on a brave face, I really just needed to let all that out. x