Please tell me I am not the only person that is going through this.

We found out yesterday that we are having another boy and my husband said when I fell pregnant no more after this one and he is very firm and set in his ways. Well we now have 3 boys and I cried my eyes out as soon as they said boy as this was my last chance for a Lil girl that I have always wanted. Well today I have been called selfish, a bad mother and told I should be happy he is healthy and not bothered by the gender seeing as I have lost babies in the past I should understand how special and lucky I am to have children. One thx for reminding me that I have lost 3 babies one being this yr and two for making me out to be a bad mother because of the way I am feeling. I have an appointment to see my Dr as he said this is a form of depression and wants to get me seen before our Lil one arrives so I can get my head round the fact I am not having a girl.