Aggressive and Different (PLEASE COMMENT!)

The First Day

My husband and I have always been on the kinkier side of the bedroom. I mean bondage, wips, chains, threesomes.....things of that sort. But we also are very loving during the entire experience each time. We have sex about twice a day....we both have high sex drives. I've been off the mirena for about a year and last Monday my period finally came, so we were really excited and decided to try and conceive. I've been on my period ever since by the way but, we still are having sex because we figured it's worth a shot. Anyways so the last few days he's been really.....different. When we were having sex the first day his personality had changed it was really scary. I got a new blonde wig and we did it in missionary. One it was like the prime baby making position and two since I was blonde he wanted to look at my face. Well all of a sudden he started choking me really really hard. We usually choke but we don't do it very hard so we can still breathe but enjoy it. This was different though....he got a really strange look in his eye and put both hands on my my throat and choked me until I nearly passed out. I kept tapping him and doing my sign for red zone but he kept doing it until he ejaculated. I laid there for a good hour just in shock....I was terrified and he just got up and made himself food like nothing happened. He walked around with that really weird look in his eye the rest of the day. It almost didn't seem like Jake it looked like a completely different person. He started a new job that day so I just decided maybe he was frustrated and accidentally took it out on me. We went to bed later that night and everything was fine.

The Second Day.

Then yesterday came around and we had a wedding for my cousin to attend so I spent all day getting ready and Jake had a game day party with his family downstairs since the wedding wasn't until very late. I went out when I was finished getting ready and got a chocolate cupcake for my husband from this awesome bakery as a treat for going to the wedding. When I came back he was munching so I put it in our mini fridge in our room and let him know it was there. He then got ready for the wedding but we showed up late anyways. He decided last minute while we were standing at the church doors that he wasn't sure he wanted to go. I was a little annoyed with his last minute decision but I didn't wanna go either so I didn't complain. He got that weird look in his eyes again and said in a really weird tone of voice, "Let's go have fun." He escorted me to the car and we decided to go see a movie. I started driving to the theatre and he said, "You're going the wrong way let's go this way." We were at a stop sign and I argued with him about it but eventually conceded as we had thirty minutes to get there and I had time to navigate back to the right way. He led me through a series of back ways until we approached a stop sign in front of a train track. A train roared by and as the cars passed he turned to look at me with that weird unsettling look in his eyes again. He just sat there staring silently and got a really creepy grin on his face. I turned and faced the train trying to ignore him while I counted the cars begging it to go by so I could drive. It eventually did and he turned back to the road and continued to direct me. We were thoroughly lost at this point and I felt a bad feeling hit my stomach and I asked if we were going the right way. He insisted we were and kept insisting over and over for me to trust him....he's my husband. We found our way to a end of town that was mostly abandoned and we hit a dead end. I stopped the car and intended to turn around as I was finished with this fiasco. He said, "Stop...why don't we get out and look at the stars we can dance under the moonlight." It sounded really romantic but then he turned on this really really weird song and got the look on his face again. I freaked out and slammed in reverse and sped out of there. He got so angry I was terrified yelling at me that we should go back and have a romantic night. I calmly slowed back down to the speed limit and tried to explain that we were going to be late for the movie and while I appreciated the surprise I'd rather watch the movie. He yelled we were going the wrong way over and over until we made our way to the thankfully very busy road to the movies. He grew quiet and I asked him to please apologize for yelling and he suddenly went back to normal and apologized telling me he loved me. We watched the movie and my grandmother called. He had my phone in his pocket since I didn't have any pockets in my dress so he left the theatre to answer it. He was gone a long time so I went looking for him. She was asking where we were and he was being very rude to her telling her she gave us the wrong time to get to the wedding, and she couldn't talk to me. He hung up on her. Later we got home and all of a sudden he said it's time to make a baby. He tore off our clothes and took me very roughly. I started enjoying it and all of a sudden as I began to climax he stopped and looked at me angrily. He asked, " are you cumming!?" I told him yes and he said, "Did I give you permission whore!?" And then he rolled off me and went to bed. It was so bizarre so I just went to bed too thoroughly freaked out.

The Third Day.

We decided to lounge today and we stayed in our PJs and played on our phones watching Netflix. We snuggled and did laundry and I was enjoying our time together. I thought that strange behavior was behind him. He was loving and kind and I was happy. Then he reaches over in the mini fridge and pulls out the cupcake. I didn't notice as I was engulfed in Facebook but I hear weird chewing noises and so I look over and ask what he was doing. He mumbled something so I touched him on the shoulder to ask him what he said. He whipped around with that weird look in his eyes and audibly growled at me.....like an animal or something. He screamed, "stay away from my cupcake!!!" I jumped back startled and he went back to woofing down his cupcake. I asked if he liked it when he was finished, and he bubbly answered yes and thank you. He again acted like nothing happened. Later on he came stomping in with that look again and I asked if it was a good time to have sex and he laid down and prepared himself so I got on top. He picked me up and threw me down really hard and painfully on the bed and forced himself into me in the most painful way. It hurt so bad the entire time. He couldn't cum so he yelled at me to get tighter and slapped me really hard on the ass and got up and turned on porn. He came back and finished in me. I have huge bruises on my ass where he hit me and on my hips where he held me. He suddenly grabbed my face and kissed me gently. He was back to normal again. Later on that night he kept bringing up really painful memories with my family from my past until I cried. He had that weird look again. He kept saying cruel things just to hurt me until I yelled at him to shut the fuck up. I couldn't take it anymore. He looked at me really evily and growled then got up and left the room. I heard him coming back up the stairs so I went and slammed the door shut and locked it. He paced back in forth for hours before saying sorry and he loved me in an really sickly sweet tone and left to sleep in the guest bedroom. After a few more hours I let him back in the bed figuring the worst of it was over. He came back and held me really tightly and kissed me and just stared at me until I faked going to sleep. He's asleep now as I type this.

Why is he so weird all of a sudden. The only different thing is his new job. He left to get there as his completely normal self and came back a different person. Idk what's wrong but this is not my husband. That weird look sends chills down my spine. Can someone please explain this behavior I need to know what to do. I need to know what this is. I'm not leaving even if I wanted to I have nowhere to go.