Frisky Much?

So I know I am a different type of person. Im an old soul around teenagers and it's difficult. Contantly they ask things and tell me things that I think and answer so different that I always get a negative response. I found myself attracted to a guy (a year younger I might add) three years now. It's sexual , I mean I thought I wanted something serious but then I realized it was just lust. I know exactly what it is and he likes me too, but I have never been easy. Maybe just maybe the fact that he would try to make me jealous and me with a calm demeanor looked so savvy he just got more jealous. He even told other guys not to talk to me as if I was already his, which is exactly why I continued to do what had done in the first place. So I told a girl and a group of girls was around us that I liked him. She told me she fucked him (and she was hesitant at first, but Im nosey I had to know) I asked for details and it was hot👏, but even that it didnt piss me off it made me want him more. I knew his weakness and his strengths and not in just sex, his ways makes me feel powerful in this time I took intrest in guys as did he with girls but still we are stuck. In the same position, Basically I have needs that I want him to fulfill, but I am mossing something tell me. I have to have him of its the last thing I do...well if its one of the things I do.