Losing my confidence...

I am currently on adhd and birth control. I will also be starting anxiety and antidepressants soon...I hate knowing that I need all of this just to feel normal. I don't know why I can't just be normal. I feel like I am just taking drugs left and right and feel like a fricken druggie for this...It just gives me anxiety if anyone I knew knew that I was on this roller coaster of mixed feelings. Which now makes me think. Am I bipolar? Idk. I really don't know anymore....