I don't like being negative, but I can't stand when my mom is negative about me ever getting pregnant or how my doctors say that it is unsafe and don't do it. I am sick of it...I really am..I really want a baby. I have been taking my medication, I am not in pain, I feel healthy. I wish I never had lupus, it makes life so hard..I feel like I have no life..the doctors run my life, I understand that they care but I want to take the leap of faith..