i just want to be a family.

(Sorry its long)Im 1week and 2 days pp. Since weve been home i have hardly asked my fiancé to help me do things because i figured he was still adjusting to just having a baby were i has way younger siblings growing up. When i do go to ask hom to feed her really quick or changer her he like gruts like he dosnt want to. I asked him to fix the sheets on the bed(one corner came off on his side) and he told me i could do it. He did go back to work but we are both security gaurds and we literally sit on our butts and do nothing. His comeback when i ask him to do something is i work to make the money you can take care of her. I wake up with her and have since she came out i take care of her while hes at work and when hes home and he still expects me to cook and clean. Im way overly stressed out to my max that i feel like sometimes there is not hope fornus to be together for much longer. I dont want to feel this way. Not to mention he goes outside to smoke and he will just sit out there and not come in. I really dont know what to do im thinking about going to my grandparents house tonight to get away with her but i dont want to at the same time. I wish he would step up and be a father more. He complaines if she starts to wine and i have to pick her up so she stops. Im so frustrated i dont even know what to do anymore! I want to pull my hair out!