Dad not there for childbirth 😢

Is it totally wrong of me to be completey disheartened and upset that my husband probably won't be there for the birth of our son ?

He didn't treat me right so I flew to my home country and now he although technically he could have come to see the birth, chances are .. He won't.

I always pictured for years having a baby with this perfect family and perfect husband there by my side but this is far from it.

When it comes to the big day , does this little stuff even matter ?? I imagine not. I bet I'd be in so much pain I wouldn't think twice about it