Jealous

I have 2 boys from a previous marriage and was supposed to have a 3rd with him but miscarried same day I lost my sister my baby fever has been crazy and I put it to the fact that maybe just maybe it was close to my due date and wanted to hold a baby... me and my boyfriend have talked about it and we aren't trying but not not trying and it's gotten to the point when I see a pregnant woman I get jealous