anyone..😢

I feel like I have depression and anxiety... I hate it I was never like this before I started dating my current boyfriend not this bad anyway😔it's not him it's just the situation one situation in particular we've been dating for 2 years and 4 months in April 2014 his parents decided to break us up and not let us talk for a week before they decided to let us date it destroyed me literally I felt like I was dying and wanted to die I felt like I couldn't breathe.. ever since then I have really bad anxiety I always have. It it seems like that made it worse...is that normal and we live aboit 45 miles apart and people say that's not a long distance but I beg to differ...it hurts like hell whenever he's gone I feel so alone and I don't want to do anything for a couple days it gets a little better but I still feel like somthing is missing sometimes I just break down and cry😢 when we make plans and I know when I'll see him again it's a little easier but when I don't know when I'll see him again or drives me insane.. I don't know what to do I don't know if I actually have depression or lot
It just kinda feels like it.