Anyone else not told their birth story yet

Sophie Soso • Critical theorist and single mama. Social scientist, too. Contact me at Apricotmama0@gmail.com
I can't seem to write it down, it feels too complex when I think about it. Yet it was painful, makes me cry at night. I want to write letters to the doctors and nurses involved, but I just can't make myself do it. Anyone else in the same boat? Or, have advice about how to get started?