Anyone else feeling remorse and all?

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I feel as though I'm the only one struggling to make things work.
Constantly trying to clean up this messy house and cursing my husband, 
Calling him other names aside from a jerk.
You see, We have 4 kids and he's given me one more on the way,
It wasn't intended but pregnancy's what happens when ya don't say it's not okay. 🙄
So we've lived with his parents in this house since we got together in 96.
I stuck by his side because he never tried to cheat on me w/ any tricks. 
We got married in 2000 and he promised we'd move out of here.
I got pregnant w/ our 1st son & couldn't think past how happy I was with our new baby coming...my mind wasn't clear.
Two years later, another son was born. 
Then another 2 years after was our baby girl. 
Our lives were completely filled with love and affection from our children and trying to make a life for them here. 
I wasn't very happy though due to his parents constantly making a mess and being hoarders and I made that very clear.
But it has not changed and only has gotten worse now that his parents are VERY old.
They refuse to throw away used plastic utensils they like to rewash just like styrofoam plates and bowls.
The mother has given $30,000 to a man thinking she'd win some kind of lottery being gullible and stupid now she's broke.
The father is so old and weak he can barely walk but refuses to live where he can get cared for-those places for old folks.
My husband works as a sushi chef only part-time,
I'm unable to do shit because of this sorry ass disease called epilepsy that's taken control of my life full time.
I can no longer drive nor do I have much of a memory because of all the seizures I've had.
I'm tired of being stuck here in this house it's that bad. 
Hell I wish at times that God had killed me instead of cursing me with this I wish I was dead. 
Anyhow I wondered if I was alone in feeling like things aren't going as planned 
And dreams and wishes are slipping through your fingers like grains of sand. 
I wondered if anyone else had tears they shed on a daily basis due to feeling like life isn't what it seems
That dreams are just that...dreams. 😔💦

I know it isn't the best poem...It's been ages since I wrote a rhyme. I just...I'm so frustrated with life and my husband and was wondering if anyone else feels like they're the only ones preparing for their baby and not their significant other. I'm trying to get stuff for baby but my stupid husband seems so caught up in his old car hobby...it's frustrating.

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Am I the only one reading this like a rap?

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Hey i know im way younger than you but yes i do feel such way. You have a friend here with me okay. You can inbox me or i could hand you in my email so if you ever wanted to talk we could just go ahead and do it. Dont give up okay. Dont worry things will get better i promise you. You have me here to help you out.

-from a 16 yr old with depression, anxiety and problems with her life.

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Lol I told him once he got home earlier. I said, "It's been a while since I wrote anything and I can't rhyme like I used to but I tried..." and he said, "Ok let's hear it!" AfterI read it, he was quiet and said that was pretty good still. You should put that on something. 🙄 Then he went out of the room and told his mother to help fix the house and she refused. He started yelling at her. She refuses to spend money to fix this house but spends her money on things she doesn't need like paper plates and more plastic utensils cause she refuses to wash dishes. So he went ballistic outside of the room. 😔 A lot of the stress I feel is due to her and her mess. I'm mad at my husband for not getting us out of here. Wish I didn't have this health issue. I'd be working in medical field still helping people like I used to. I miss it! 💔

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Tell his ass off

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His car hobby should be the LAST thing on his mind. You clearly need help around the house and he should be saying something to his parents.. I understand it's their house and all but your basically taking care of them and your kids and it's not fair. Sounds like someone needs to grow a pair.. aside from the one your kids have come from

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I broke down when no one was helping me while I was trying to cook dinner. Then I ended up finally telling my mother in law how I felt about how she needs to start cleaning up and helping around here and she told me to shut up. Told me if I didn't like it to get out of her house. I told her it isn't her house cause if it was her house then she'd be taking care of it properly and she kept saying shut up. I told her she was a liar that she has money and she just doesn't care to fix anything in this house and that's why I don't want my children talking to her because she's a liar. Told her to suck my dic#. I went upstairs and cried for a bit. Tired of this stress. 😖💦 When I thought it was all over and done with...she calls her nephew who comes over and asks what's going on. He looks at me then my big belly then walks to her then back to me. When I try to tell him what happened she walks up trying to invade my personal space and I tell her to leave. That's when he says I'm out of line and I said no I'm not! I want her away from me! He said no! You're out of line! You don't talk to her like that! This is her house!!! So I said fu#k you too! I don't need this stress! So I stop trying to check my blood sugars and go upstairs and he calls police on me for domestic disturbance. 😳 they don't come because I'm not doing anything!! Just trying to keep away and they're trying to fight me it seems! All I felt was contraction after contraction😖

Anyone else feeling remorse and all?

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