I can't help but cry

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So AF came today... and I can't help but cry.. I tested before my period and got a BFN and cried all day, but now I know for SURE it isn't our month.... Sunday is my hubby and I's 2yr anniversary and our 1yr mark TTC... we have a wonderful weekend planned and I want to enjoy it so bad but I'm so let down... it would have been the best gift ever and I just keep failing... how do you ladies get through it month after month and NOT put it on your hubby?!