vent-I'm so done with life.

 Six months ago I lost all of my friends(all for different reasons, too long of a story). My ex dumped me because I was too emotional. I was still dealing with my previous ex who was emotionally abusive and manipulative/cheating and thrived off my attention. 

I moved to a different state with my overbearing grandparents and stressed them out. I had a stressful job where everyone shunned me. My second job was at a cafe and people were rude (mostly just everyone in that state) and the girls were backstabbing bitches who loved drama. I got in an accident and lost all my savings. Had to travel all the way back home and spend lots of money for an orientation where I missed the train and had three panic attacks and messed up the assignment and lost the folder.

I moved back home, broke, and my parents were nice enough to pay for my first couple months rent in my apartment while I attend university. The men and males here in general are all ASSHOLES. My academic advisor was rude and refused to help and basically always tells me "what do you want me to do about it?" "Can you be more specific (when I'm only asking for GENERAL advice)?" "Why did you come here and not a different advising office?" "No I cannot email that form idk how (then emails it)." And is basically passive(not even passive) aggressive and defensive. 

I am behind in every class, probably failed the exam I took today, parents moved away and I have no friends, on top of anxiety and depression.

My grandpa died and I had to do a eulogy.

I thought I had money on my card and I went to the store because I need FOOD and I got declined several times and had to leave the store (where a man got mad that I cut him even though he was standing very far back from the line, and the man behind him got mad because he was next) and I can't think of anything good that's happened to me in the past year.

I know I should be thankful but the little things add up when you have depression. I have no motivation, I'm hungry, and lonely and feel like a failure.