masturbating..

Okay I know I will get a lot of crap about it cause "it's normal" and "natural" but I have to say weirdest fucking thing EVER. I hear about it and I feel so weird I'm 18 but I didn't hear about it till I was like 16...( I was sheltered)  I feel like it's cause my parents never told me ANYTHING . I feel like cause sex was 99.99% of the time never spoken of and even that tiny time was never approved of  ( it was saying never do it ) and masturbation was 110% never spoken about I find it something to hide 😳 gosh I think my past has ruined any way for me to be comfortable with it . Anyways just wanting to share cause I know there are girls like me that just want to know that even tho it is natural it is also natural to be uneasy about things your entire life people just never spoke of or said was wrong