Four, five month sleep regression?! and fussing.. 😟

Not looking to complain about my sweet baby but boy this past couple of weeks have been rough on us.. she used to be a pretty good if not decent sleeper if we swaddled her, kept her in a cool, dim, quiet room.. she used to sleep around 6,7pm, and almost sleep through while waking up for her bottle every 2-3 hourly up until she was 3 and half months when i moved to be with my husband in seoul.

She just wont sleep much and she started this thing where she would cry, scream so hard if i walk away, sometimes even if i just turn my back from her to reach for her toy or just wash my hands! In a week when i'm alone i end up eating all my lunches right on the bed so that she can see me and sometimes she'd fuss (make like shrieking or grunting or growling sounds) until i pick her up.. i always try to assure her and talk to her but she just shrieks louder and will start scratching her face and pull out her hair because she's so upset! 😨 and for sleep she's been waking soo often at night! my hubby is in grad school, he needs to study at night the poor guy had been carrying our baby on his shoulder while he does his work so i can get some sleep.. last night was super challenging she was awake and wouldnt take her bottle (it was past 4,5 hrs), and kept fussing rolling back and forth.. we dont think she's teething, she's not gassy.. she's just super alert like a toddler who slept for soo many hours.

Anyone have any similar experiences to share and give thoughts on? i know its something about babies think you're gone if they cant see you near them.. people told me if i get my baby used to being held she'll be like that forever,i dont hold her ALL the time but it is very often and its tiring! im not sure how is this helping to raise a secure, happy, self confident baby.. and i think all the constant fussing and crying is making her into a nervous baby, it's making me tensed too. sometimes its so exhausting dealing with her that i find myself crying while feeding or nursing her.. 😟 in the past when it got a little rough i always told myself this is going to pass.. this is just a growth spurt.. she's probably just tired.. but this is looking like our routine where every day seems such a battle and my baby's turning 5 months on 28th.. and i've gone through the whole breast refusal (at 10 days old), got mastitis twice, at 2nd month she insisted on breast milk but in bottles only (had to frantically pump all around), 3rd month bottle refusal, now this sleep regression.. this kid is breaking me. 😂 someone tell me this is going to get better.. should i wear her in the moby wrap during the day?