Strip club 😡

Last night my husband lied to me. Told me he was going out to eat with his buddies. After not answering my calls for 4 hours I checked the bank account to see where he was at. It turns out my husband withdrew $100 to pay women to strip for him. 
I am beyond hurt. It feels like a dagger in my heart. I have no appetite, I have no happiness. My husband decided to lie and see other women naked. He used OUR money to have them strip for him. I was home, waiting for him. He could have had ME for FREE!!!  
I know there are many women out there who are okay with their men going to strip clubs... I'm not one of them. This feels like the closest thing to cheating. Him paying a woman to disrobe. All that was missing was penetration. 
I feel like I am dying on the inside. I feel ugly, unworthy, and unattractive.Â