I'm in shock. I don't know what to feel or what to think or what to do. My fiancé replapsed. On meth. I found his using supplies hiding in the bathroom while looking for fever reducer. I walked in the bedroom and asked him what it was and he told me 'I'm not going to lie to you, its what you think.' And I went numb. Blank. He's been clean. He didn't show any of the signs of relapse. But I guess it happened yesterday, yesterday, the day all my attention was on myself. I knew it when I woke up at 530 this morning and he was already awake. I knew it when he started throwing up. I knew. But I found if for myself and now I have no idea what next.