moving on

At this point I'm wishing I had never met you. I've learned so much from our relationship and you helped me grow as a person. You are the best well were the best, you played with my rations for little more than 3 years. But I did let you. Now that you've obviously moved foward with your life and no longer love me for real this time it kind of stings me a little because I'm over here still waiting for you to come back like alwasy but I see now that you won't. This times diffrent and I can see now you are a changed person no longer acting like a boy you are becoming a wonderful man. It just sucks to see I don't get to grow with you and have a life together like I wanted. Seeing you time to time to satisfy each others needs isn't settling with me anymore because this morning and last night I saw that there's no feelings between us. You see me as a friend nothing more. I love you so dearly it's just I wish I could forget you and not deal with the pain of getting over you when you've already moved on.