I think my marriage is over...
Ever since getting pregnant, my husband and I have grown very far apart. We didn't really practice any religion but did pray and believe in God. When I got pregnant we decided to join a church so our children could go there with us. I was raised Catholic he was raised Penecostal. We tried many nondenominational churches but he refused all of them. Months went by and eventually he said he didn't want to go to church at all. I didn't feel the same. I told him how much I wanted to have the baby baptized and for us to go to a Catholic Church. He said he would think about it. Weeks went by and he avoided the topic. Finally, it blew up into a fight and he admitted to thinking the Catholic Church was satanic and a cult. He wants to return to a Pentecostal church. I have tried his families church when we visit them and it is very strict. The women cannot wear pants, makeup or jewelry. The members are not allowed to "date", only marriage. They don't drink any alcohol or listen to secular music or watch movies. My husband strayed away from the church in college before we met so he was never into these rules when I knew him. However, now he is. He says our child is not allowed to go trick or treating and our daughter is only allowed to wear dresses and he won't listen to music anymore. Although I was raised in a religious family, my family didn't push religion on us. I have a sibling who is gay and atheist and it's completely fine with my family. We love them anyway. However, my in laws are very homophobic and still have not forgiven my husband for leaving the church. I don't want to have a family like this. Although I believe in God and love the Catholic Church, it's religions and families like this that make me despise religion completely. I have explained this to my husband and he just doesn't care. He claims God has spoken to him and he refuses to compromise on any of the rules. I have threatened to leave and he doesn't care. He says he chooses the religion over me. I am 40 weeks pregnant.. I'm so miserable. I just cry all the time. I love my unborn baby and will love him forever but I am to the point where I truly regret my marriage. Which is crazy because before all of this, I was VERY happily married to a man I loved more than life itself. It's mind blowing how drastically things changed. I'm too ashamed to tell anyone so I feel so alone. Please try not to be harsh or negative. Again, I am 40 weeks pregnant and feeling extremely alone- I would just like some support or helpful advice.
UPDATE: thank you for all your comments!! I have considered us having our children go to church with me one week & him the next or something similar that will allow them to learn both faiths. However, The reason I don't really want to do this is because I've been reading a lot about it and many people who were raised this way said that they felt that if they chose one religion, the other parent would be hurt, or it was too hard to choose and just decided against religion altogether or because mom & dad couldn't agree on it "it must not be that important". Also, considering how strict his church is- I just don't want my children in that environment. I'm a strong believer in equal rights. I don't want my children learning that women aren't allowed to dress however they want or to treat those different from them like they're less than. My Catholic Church is very accepting of all. Whether you don't believe in God or you're gay or divorced or whatever it may be, our priest is big on accepting everyone and showing love and respect to everyone. I want my children to feel the same and I worry that if one week at my church they're told to accept everyone and the next week at DH's church they're told gay people are evil and going to hell (which I've literally heard them say!) it will just be overwhelming. I think the fact that my parents were both devout Catholics and shared the same beliefs throughout my entire life really gave me a sense of stability and helped made me more confident about our religion. DH is also not speaking to me & is sleeping on the couch tonight. :( Earlier when we were speaking, he said "I'm sorry you're unhappy" but that he couldn't change who he was for me.
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